• The Significance Of Adulthood Is The Accumulation of Ordinary Days I Am Still Living Through

    Well. It is now 5.56p.m on Tuesday, and I am on my way home. It is one of those days where your experiment failed halfway due to machine malfunction and you were forced to choose between staying for a couple more hours and redoing the whole thing or to throw your hands up, go “oh…

  • Adulthood Is A Limbo I Somehow Wandered Into.

    It is now 11.50 a.m. on Tuesday, and I am sitting in the office. I am currently fixing up some samples for later use, so here I am while they incubate. I am so completely and utterly exhausted and I feel like the entirety of my life force has been leeched from my very being.…

  • Adulthood Was All That Glittered But I still Cannot Tell If It Is Gold

    Well. It is now 2.49 p.m. on Thursday and I am sitting in the office, taking a break before extracting some plasmids later. I am feeling rather easily overwhelmed today so I am keeping the volume in my AirPods at a gentler volume. I shall attribute this to the four hours of sleep I got…

  • I Am Past My Prime But The Season Is Yet To Be Over.

    It is now 2.49 p.m on a Wednesday, and I am yet again sitting in the office. This time, I am not waiting for any experiments to be done, I suppose what I am doing now would be considered procrastination. I have work to do but the recent weather has been horrible, what with all…

  • My Suffering Is An Investment And I Do Not Know If There Are Any Returns On It.

    It is now 4.18p.m on Monday, and I am sitting in the office while waiting for my PCR to finish running. I cannot help myself but I am completely low in spirits, as well as being terribly anxious, restless, and irritable. This is the second time today that I am running a PCR, since the…

  • My Best Looks Like Someone’s Bare Minimum

    It is currently 4.24 p.m. on a Friday, and I feel as though my entire week has been wasted. I spent the week on a few days’ long experiment that culminated in nothing, and I am feeling despondent and anxious in equal parts. Meh. I guess this is life. I believe my despondency stems from…

  • Indelicate questions that vexed me so

    It is now 4.26 p.m on Monday, and the office is really quiet. There is an event so almost everyone is elsewhere, which suits me just fine since I am not in the mood to smile at people today. My mood today…well it is just peachy. And by “peachy,” I really meant “sour.” Over this…

  • Luxury is a properly warm breakfast

    So. Recently I had a mini getaway (a staycation, if you will) with my husband. I shan’t lie through my teeth and proclaim that I came back from it refreshed, yadda yadda. If I were to be honest, I was not able to truly rest with a complete peace of mind during the 2 nights’…

  • I Just Need A Damn Win.

    There was this scene in the later seasons of Supernatural where Sam asked Dean if he was okay, and Dean went, “No. Sam, I am not okay, I am pretty far from okay. I just need a win. I just need a damn win.“ Goddamn what a hit in the gut. These days I am…

  • First Time Getting a Manicure, and I watched a documentary (Trust Me: The False Prophet)

    Yesterday, I got a manicure for the first time. And a pedicure. I have always been quite dubious about having either manicures or pedicures so to suddenly get the nails on both my fingers and toes done was a pretty big deal for me. Granted, I did not even go for a gel polish with…